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Name: Jamie
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Birthday: 8/28/1985
Interests: playing guitar, singing ,God, chillin both on the west and east coast, working with kids, and helping others
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  eimaj828
Member Since:
1/24/2003
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| its all about the bigger picture. that's what i keep telling myself.
with almost every step i've had to take or any big decisions i've had to make..i always try to be cautious. laying out the risks versus the benefits. trying to control what i probably can't. its a pretty addicting habit. i realized that sometimes i just have to stop and let go for a minute- take a look at what's around me and work with the present instead of trying to always plan for the future. so what i love about being home is that i get to catch my breath. not worry about anything, do absolutely nothing but relax, and most importantly be around people that i love. i even have time to write in this and i'm sure no one really reads these things.
so i've been asked many many times whether or not i'll be staying in california and i think i've been asking myself the same question even more. i really don't know. i'll be done with school in march..and honestly it depends on how efficient and well i do the next 6 months that determine where i will be. if i'm lazy i probably will stay in cali by default for another year or two at most. but knowing me i will probably be working my ass off in my last two quarters... especially since i FINALLY have a car after waiting for like 6 yrs. i know what needs to get done and hopefully i won't lose my grip. by the way UC Davis now charges a $20,000 fee just for not being a california resident. finding this out made me drop my minor and realize that i need to get out of school asap. 4 years ago the fee was about half that..and i always wondered where the money possibly went to? probably the new dorms i've never lived in and the new hotel on campus they're building now that i will never see. so now it costs about $40k for out-of-staters to go to davis. i'm really going to a private school here..not a public one and ironically i'm paying california taxes from work.
however, money comes and goes. it can give me nice materialistic things and possibly happiness for some, but it can do its fair share of damages as well. i think more damage than good from first hand experience.yet i think that as long as i find what i truly want to do..i will be satisfied. it will take time to get to where i want to be at and everything doesn't always work out the way i perfectly planned it to be or the way it was "supposed" to be. but as long as i know what i want to do..nothing can really stop me.
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